Bringing It All Back Home

They have a drug for everything now. There was a drug on Sixty Minutes not so long ago I describe as the "Jesus drug". If you go through some horrible trauma or embarrasment or personal hurt and can't "put it behind you" you just take the Jesus drug and it's the same thing as going to a tent revival and "getting saved". Perhaps some bright soul will give this drug to our vetterans, so they won't blab about their experiances. Perhaps Jesus could personally adminester the entire nation of Palestine this drug in 70 AD so they could all forget they were really Jews and they could get saved. You have to wonder whather George Bush is taking a drug like this. After all he's been "embarrassed" so much so that a person with a normal sense of shame wouldn't want to show his face. Jane Fonda said that if they had had Prozac now, her father would have been more “engaged with her” as a child. May I respectfully disagree. I heard- or more specifically I have read that Prozac drowns out all real feelings about human involvement and creates an overall numbing effect so that you just don’t feel anything. Others have said that sera-tonin is the “accomplishment” hormone. Your brain releases it when you do something decisive to give you the feeling you have accomplished something. [name withheld]’s problem is that he hasn’t accomplished anything in his marriage, but is given a drug to make him feel as though he had. I found the things he said at the [farce gathering] a little hard to take. I’m glad that Jane Fonda and her father were able to “act out the drama” on TV in the guise of a movie. I guess I didn’t entirely know how “personal” Golden Pond was.

I would now like to turn my attention to affairs of national importance that we haven’t been talking about, notably George Bush and the media. I have seen some disturbing signs. For one it was noted, and we all witnessed it, that the networks did not engage in their usual post mastication of the President’s remarks. Randy Rhodes thought the entire speech wasn’t live at all, like the President wasn’t even in condition to do the speech live. Of course there were the jokes about it being the first time Bush had even been in the Presidential library. Some say the speech was flat. I for myself was concentrating more on the actual words or “text” than the manner of delivery, but I will note there was a lack of passion or conviction. But I was surprised that the media signed off right away. Apparently it was more important to get back to “Deal or No Deal”. Well, that is a good question for us all. But the upshot of that is that we did not get to hear the democratic response. This is not twenty years ago. Back then Reagan has a real challenge on his hands. But they would never have done a puff movie on the Reagan administration like ABC did on 9 – 11 like they did four months ago. But turning to a key thesis of the President’s speech – mainly “This is not an open-ended commitment”. I would like to hold the President to his word on this one. He gave us his solemn pledge that he had worked out some deal of cooperation with Meliki and that from now on there would be no more siding with the Shiites and that Meliki would rein the wayward forces of his own government freeing up our troops to do their job. It was noted however that the President was never forthcoming with a Plan B. You always need a back-up plan to give the primary plan teeth. Stated another way as Dr. Phil might, “You have control over what you do but you don’t have control on what others do”. So if others let you down you need to take responsibility for your own actions, you need to “Own It” and proceed from there. The President had no Plan B. He never said what he would do if things “Didn’t work out”. Congelisa Rice’s remarks about “The way to insure success is to not think of the risks” just makes no sense. It is particularly important that you have a Plan B, if the odds for success of Plan A are tenuous to begin with. I would like to hear from the President’s lips just under what circumstances he will say the cause is lost. If you’re a Christian, however, thinking “What if God lets me down” is not an option, so perhaps that’s where the President is coming from. It doesn’t even need to be repeated how many times the people of America have been jerked around. The objectives of the War keep changing. It’s doubtful whether the fall 1992 congressional resolution even has any relivance since there are no weapons of mass destruction, there are no real links between Al Quada and whatever we were fighting in Iraq, and there is no more Saddam Hussein, or Uday or Cushi, or Zardowi. It is further disturbing that we are actually siphoning off more forces from Afghanistan where troops are already short- - only to send more to a losing bet in Iraq. The opium growing industry has really come back- - and that new democracy and newly won rights in Afghanistan are now in jeopardy, all to support a losing war in Iraq. What we need to do is send troops back to Afghanistan and also to Kurdistan to protect that sector, in case Turkey has thoughts of invading them.

But the consequences of this war haven’t been brought home. We know that President Bush refuses to attend funerals of soldiers. We also know that the media is under a ban of showing coffins being loaded on to trucks. Recently the President visited a military base and reporters had it made clear to them that they were forbidden to interview any of the troops. The media should perhaps spend more time interviewing veterans in intensive care wards. Barbra Boxer today talked about burn victims. The nurses see soldiers so disfigured that they keep photos of them in uniform around to remind them that they are actually dealing with a human being. One doctor said that in a four month period he performed between one and two genital amputations every single day. You know there is talk about daughters losing their virginity too soon. But in reality the things that really happen “too soon” are bad things and not good. I would say the “appropriate” time to have your genitals removed is perhaps on a mortician’s slab after you’re dead. Then you won’t care. People have this out of sight out of mind feeling about this war because in rich Republican neighborhoods they aren’t seeing the number of “volunteers” as you see in poor, minority neighborhoods. Of course now they have changed the rules for National Guard and Reservists. You’re not just a “weekend warrier” when you sign up now. It used to be you only had to serve at maximum one year and now they’re saying you cam be made to serve up to four. At least in the Vietnam era once you served your year that was it, for all time. I guess we should be glad at least no shady contracts are being made with pet corporations this time around. Rush Limbaugh on his show today was saying Americans were spoiled and ungrateful for their liberties. Rush is wrong. Americans are grateful. But two emotions can coexist in the same person. Just because you’re grateful for the good doesn’t mean that everything about our government is perfect. The President is looking for a place in the history books and if he’s not careful me may find one: As the most out of touch President we have ever had. When you’re rich, it’s easy to praise God for your riches. When you’re President, it’s easy to see America as one big propaganda film with flags waving and appropriate music playing. If “Failure is not an option” what you’re saying is that “life won’t be worth facing if I lose”. Maybe Bush expects the Rapture to come. If you risk all of your money on Final Jeopardy and lose it doesn’t matter. Runner ups don’t get to keep their money anyhow so it doesn’t matter- and besides the game is over. But the “Game of life” does not end for the rest of us all that “conveniently”. (Selah)

The 115th. Strawberry Revival

It’s hot in here. Today is Wednesday April 6, 2005, and the temperature creped up higher than expected. I see the grammar check is highlighted. I know that being in color means you can use them now and in black and white you have to wait. I went to the store after dinner for two cinnamon rolls and around the corner for coffee. I have been feeling drowsy this afternoon. There’s still stuff I might want to check in the last file. I anticipate this one being done at a much slower pace.

Oscar knocked on the door about five to ten and asked if I was going. I hauled myself down there. Valerie was in the front seat and right off it was evident she was more attentive than normal. She was looking at me outside, and then repeatedly turned around to make conversational coments like the same Philipinos that own this place own hers and also own “where Susan lives”. I guess we’re thinking of the same Susan. There was a new girl named Amanda, who lived with Valerie. I later found out she had only lived there two days. Amanda had a better singing voice than Valerie. She alluded to some posture surgery she needed but if they cut the wrong nerve she’d be paralyzed. On the patio I learned she had a boyfriend somewhere. Valerie told me she was the second longest tenant at nearly a year and only her roommate has been longer- at five years. She said two of the girls were hospitalized for depression, including the one who had attempted suicide. We didn’t take off right away because we had to wait for George. Valerie talked to the driver a lot. We made fantastic time there getting there before ten thirty. I was served coffee and a muffin. On the patio Valerie finally noticed I had new tennis shoes on after several weeks. Another time when I was out of smokes Valerie wanted me to come out with her. For a while nothing was going on in-side and attendance appeared to be way down. Larry remarked, “The wheels are coming off the wagon”. Larry had me sorting this big stack of crossword puzzles, most of which were already in order. Finally Larry gave us a puzzle to do. It was so hard that half of my answers, the ones I even guessed at, had to be wrong. I put it aside to pursue some-thing that was less mentally taxing- - a word search puzzle. I did the whole thing and it didn’t take that long. The word I had the most trouble with was “suitcase”. I went out for a smoke and returned and someone had taken my crossword. I asked Larry for an-other as he was about to give the answers, and he gave me the wrong puzzle. We had ham and cheese sandwiches and chips and a banana for lunch. I only won twice in Bingo and given the generosity today, this isn’t even par. There was a lot of dead time after-ward from 1:15 to 2:00 when we left. There was an-other sexy girl there I’d never seen before. An exotic looking one with light brown hair, but she appeared to be hovered over by this taller brunette. As we got in the van, Manfred told me he won five times. This isn’t unusual. Valerie announced that she was going to sit next to me. She was pro-active in engaging me in conversation the whole day, which is out of character for her. We got to talking about radio stations. Even Las Vegas has two Classic Rock stations. It’s almost as though Olbie Wan Canobe had app-eared at parents’ house and hypnotized them into calling Valerie’s and saying, “Did you know that after we die [Marcus] stands to inherit several hundred thousand dollars?” The last thing she said to me was “See you tomor-row”. At ten to three we were here and I finished watching “Passions”. Fox has fallen out of favor with Allester now. Then I went down to see Oscar, who gave me my money.

Another Side of Marcus Arelius

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I know you and your ways

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Better Come To God Today

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This Will Be Your Final Call

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The Hand Is Writing On the Wall

DON’T LAUGH AT IT; DO IT

OK we’re going to “simocast” with the blog for a while here. This morning I was out on the patio and I was just thinking how blessed I was to have a High Definition TV right in this room here and how in congrewous it was. I was wondering whether I really “deserved it” from a divine perspective. God gave me an answer from TV as soon as I got back inside. They were talking about paying off mortgages early to save intrest payments and should people do it. Suffering or going without in this life is rather similar from a spiritual standpoint to “paying down a mortgage early” in this life. The answer is that you should not do it if you’re buying your first house because that money could be put to much better use in the here and now paying off things like credit cards so those payments don’t escalate. And so there is your answer. Don’t think of the bye and bye when you won’t need the money as badly as you need it now. Last night I had another of those Burt Lombard dreams. As you know “Burt Lombard” is sort of a ficticious identity I assumed when I became a born again Christian though there are only a few snail mail letters to the media where I actually sign it Burt Lombard. “Burt Lombard” was born February 20^th. 1957 and is from Cincinatti, Ohio, just like Steve Johnson. In this dream I was on some sprawling religious “Campus” with lots of gardens and walkways and buildings and lots of stairs to go up and down. Most of the time I was with a croud people going somewhere for an activity. This was like an “Amazing Prophecies” campus or something where everybody believed in the Rapture of the faithful. I was getting that “Burt Lombard” feeling. You know a little bird has been whispering in my ear that I didn’t exactly get my new HDTV through prayer and fasting. (With my recent illness, maybe the fasting part a little) I have to ask myself “Would you have gotten that TV from parents five years ago?” As you know their usual modas opperandi is when they say No they mean No and sometime when they say Yes they mean No. This TV was a “No” as recently as a couple of weeks ago. They said I couldn’t get one. Hence we have a case of water actually flowing upstream. I remember when I was waiting outside the Dentist’s office on an overcast day in June of 2005 and I was talking or perhaps arguing with a representative from the Orion Federation. And they told me that there would be a fundamental change in relation between me and my parents when it came to economics in the coming future. The Federation wants me to give credit where credit is due. If something could NOT have happened five years ago the Federation just wants me to open my eyes and see what has changed. I’m thinking of that scene in the Jim Jones movie where Reverand Jones comes to Father Divine and says “I’ve been having money problems at my church. What do I do?” and Father Divine looks up to heaven and says “Just look to Father and ask. Just- - Ask. Father will provide”. You know, I’d like to be in his position. As some elder spokesman for a religion and people come to me and ask what should they do and I just gaze upwards to heaven and say “Just ask Father”. It’s a wonderful feeling to be able to offer people reassurance and know that your words actually have traction.

Another answer I got from the television was one day I was listening to a preacher who made the statement “The night time is for sleeping”. The truth of this statement may not be readily apparent. Jesus in John 7 or somewhere says in response to people who were worried about muggers and robbers, “Are there not twelve hours in a day. If you walk in the light you are protected” or some such thing. “My father works and I too must work. The night is coming when no man can work”. I thought of this saying “The night is coming”. What does it mean? Does it mean that after Jesus gets crucified a horrible persecution will be unleashed so that nothing can be accomplished? Actually what it means that as long as you’re alive it is Day, and when it is Day you work and do the Lord’s service. When the night comes you sleep. In Thesselonians and elsewhere sleep is associated with death. Elsewhere St. Paul says, with perhaps false hope, “The night is far spent. The night is when people party and get drunk. But you are children of the Light”. I kind of think what he means is that the rapture is symbolic of the Dawn. So Jim Morrison is right in a symbolic sense. The rapture comes at Dawn, spiritual dawn. And we also know that as far as Genisis is concerned the dawn of a new day comes at Sumset. I would like to throw out this possibility for you. That the Rapture just might come at St. Patrick’s day at sunset. This is after we go on Daylight Savings Time.

I want to talk just a little about George’s Bush’s speech last night. If Rush Limbaugh were true to himself he’d say to put a sign on the front of your TV saying “This man is a confirmed liar” or some such thing. I guess what any Born Again Christian needs to know by instinct is “How to have Faith”. In this case – how do you have Faith in somebody who has proved unfaithful in the past? How do you develop anew that trust you may have had five years ago? People say “I know already Bush isn’t doing this build-up right”. If we take him at his word, and I trust the president WANTS us to take him at his word- - he wants us to know that he has talked to Meliki and how Meliki has pledged not to do what he’d done before and allow the Shiites to run rampant, but to work in an even-handed way to end sectarian violence. Once we clear an area can the Iraqi government and their own police force be trusted to maintain order? Can we “work together” to deligate duties so that we are all in concert getting a single job done? I think we can hope for that and pray for that. Bush believes if he just had another 22,000 troops he could properly deploy them so that all the bases were covered and there would be no “pup-ups” of violence like John Mc Cain talks about. How does John Mc Cain feel about this speech? Certainly from his statements Mc Cain wanted several times the number of troops we are going to send. Personally if I were president, and I’ve said this before, I would get on TV and tell the American people “I’m looking to You to help me to decide whether to further pursue this war. If we are going to prosecute this war properly we will have to reinstitute the national Draft. Your young men will be at risk, and there will be no deferments. Rich and Poor alike will share in this burden. Are you up to the task? With a Draft I can send the extra two hundred thousand troops we need to meet the required total number of $350,000 to insure that we get the job done. War should not be a thing where only a few people in the country sacrifice and the rest don’t care. The solution to a War is not to “Go Shopping” but rather for mutual national sacrifice, just like our grandparents did in World War II. Are you up to the task?” I’d ask for cards and letters to the White House telling me what to do. And if it was a thumbs down on the draft then I’d end the war and bring the troops home for some long needed rest and relaxation.

More of the Same Ol' Same Ol'

We won't learn much from President Bush on Wednesday night that we didn't already know. Obviously all that extra time he's taken to make his decision hasn't done any good. President Bush plans to increast troop strength by twenty thousand. This is despite the fact that even those who advocate a "surge" say it will take more like two hundred thousand to achieve the effect the President wants in Iraq, ie. to "pacify" the area. They have it all figured out to a scientific ratio to population to troops. Of course Bush isn't listening to either the hawks or the doves on this issue. I have no idea who he's listening to. For the longest time he insisted the generals were telling him we didn't need more troops. Generals Casey and Abasaid were saying we didn't need the extra troops and they said this as long as it made Bush happy. Now Bush has fired those two and put in two others who agree with his new policy. This doesn't seem like a very logical way to run a war. It used to be said the troop increase would only be for four months or so. Now those in the know are saying that increased number of troops, whatever it is, will be in Iraq for the remaining two years of Bush's adminestration and he can let the next President figure out what to do.

Congress isn't going to start their hundred hours till tomorrow. The Democrats plan to pass six major bills in one hundred hours and aren't allowing amendments by the Republicans to screw things up. Already they have made lobbying and earmarks reforms, which are good. It seeme tonight's game between Florida and Ohio State would somehow interfear with the hundred hours. I looked up on the internet which said the other Florida, Florida State beat UCLA, though some web cites didn't even think the game has been played yet. I still am not convinced this congress is going to do anything really novel or radical. Now we have the news that the late associate Justice Renquist was hooked in drugs his first ten or eleven years on the high bench. William Renquist was hooked on phylactid (?) darvon, and codeine. The FBI was inlisted to spy on and blackmail witnesses who would testify against Renquist as his confirmation hearings both in the early seventies and in the 1986 hearings for chief justice. Apparently Sen. Strom Thurmond asked Negroponte to do some stuff. They say that Renquist was constantly slurring his speech on the bench. I don't know what to make of all this. Every day we learn something more radical about our politicians than we knew the day before.

There is a lot of interest in the Kabbalah now, and they're advertizing it on the radio. The more research I do on the topic like in the Wickipedia and Q and A websites, the more I realize I don't know. Let me just say that according to the Federation the Kabbalah goes back to the days of Solomon. Reading "The secret passage of the lion" at the time of Abraham about 1800 BC there was Shem, Noah's son, who was the King of Salem, alias Jerusalem. And after him was Solomon. And it was said that the sons of Darda were those with spiritually elete knowledge. It says elsewhere that Zerah, of whom Darda was one of his sons, was the eldest of twin sons of Tammar, who were sired in a quazi incestuous relation with Judah. Tammar, the mother, tied a scarlet string around the finger of Zerah as he came out of the womb, then he retracted it and his brother Perez came out whole first, but Tammar said "Zerah is the oldest". Hence the dezignation of the Federation of the Zerahites and Dardanians as "The Elder Race". When they ended up going down to Egypt the Dardanians left by Sea first while the Perezites were still in Egypt and sailed to Grece and founded Troy. Later on these Dardanians fanned out Westward and became the Sephardic Jews. The Sephardic Jews are the "Medeteranian" or "Spanish Jews" of the middle ages and the ones most into the kabbalah. Zerah means "Golden Dawn" and I guess the study of the Goldn Dawn is a whole other branch of study, as are the Free Masons, but all three claim to have esoteric knowledge. They are all into spiritual spheres of the body much as chakras in Hinduism are, and are into mysterious number combinations. One article today went so far as to say Greek Mathmeticians got their knowledge from the Kabbalah. Others said Kaballah tradition goes all the way back to Adam. Others say it was a segment of the Mosiac law called the "oral tradition" meaning it was meant to be transmitted orally, whereas God espressly told Moses to write down the Torah, or written law. Since I don't know that much about the Kaballah or even which books they consider Sacred, I have little more to say except they believe in the four archangels, Michael (which means "Who is like God?) and also Gabrael, Raphael, and Uriel, which means "light bearer".

The following was typed Wednesday January 3rd.

This is after dinner. We had fish, rice, and salad and I had seconds. I went out to the bakery for a large coffee and John was there. I hope I left him enough coffee. I guess this is getting to be a “back to normal” day since there will be no football game on tonight and Al Franken is back on the radio. [Actually there was a FOX game with LSU defeating Notre Dame in the Sugar bowl. “According to Jim” made its return to the ABC airwaves last night] Another sign of back to normalcy is that there was a shooting at a High School in Washington state. Today is the eighth and presumably final day of mourning for President Ford. Sarah Jane Moore will be interviewed from her call at 5:30. Ford was laid to rest at sunset on a hill he had picked out himself outside his Presidential museum in Grand Rapids. Jimmy Carter claims that when the two were traveling together he never wanted the trip to end the time with Ford. There was of course a 21 gun salute and a 21 jet flyover in a missing man formation.

Of course congress presumably gets going tomorrow though I hear it will be partying and festivities. I’m with Ed Schultz. Enough of the balling and partying and let’s get on with the game, the task at hand. This congress can’t get going too soon in my book. Meanwhile Randy Rhodes, who spared us by not talking about her dog again today, lamented the death of Saddam Hussein. That’s been the one bright spot in the news lately, that Saddam was hanged and mocked and taunted by guards and the whole thing was tapes on a cell phone and put on the internet. That’s modern day enlightened news as it happened. For some reason Randy’s brain just isn’t plugged in today. She’s talking and lamenting how nobody knows the history of Saddam’s reign. She says the US supplied him with the Saran gas. I’m glad he’s dead. Remember what Vincent Bugliosi said about Charles Manson, “If you decline to give this man the death penalty he will laugh at you from inside his cell”. We’re all tired of looking at the guy’s face and it’s time to put him out with the rest of the garbage. I think Saddam, like Manson got more than a fair trial and exploited everything for his own propaganda purposes.

When the Past Meets the Future

This is a new year where the future collides with the past. As you know in dig.com they talked about this massive of Evangalical Christianity in the rest of the world other than “here”, meaning North America and Europe. Everybody else in the world seems to think fundamentalist Christianity is the greatest thing since sliced bread. The Moslems may have something to say about that. Meanwhile we have all these futuristic devices on the Today show like new ways to get your E mail and some small metallic device that can turn large objects into giant speakers. I can’t even begin to tell you how those work. We hear about Bose electronics that “whisper you to sleep” but nobody ever quotes a price. You have to take it on Paul Harvey’s word that these things reproduce sound better than anything else and apparently money is no object. Leo Le Port was chiding people, apparently like my blogs, who regurgitate the news to other readers rather than let the readers go to an outlet like world net daily or dig.com for their news. Well I’ll tell you I just might stick in more stuff about my personal life because that’s something the readers can’t get in other places. Leo was talking about how science is no longer charting a liniar progression path but there are often quantum surprises. If they ever isolate the graviton they will have discovered the warp principle. The graviton is a circular sub particle rather than a horseshoe style “string” that is “anchored” to something. Circular “strings” are free floating, which means their “influence” is lessoned. Someone likened the graviton not to billiard balls hitting each other, but rather the sound of the balls hitting each other. Science is and has discovered an awful lot of stuff that hasn’t made its way into the popular economy. Some things like cell phones and blackberries or viewing movies on your I pod seems so normal, and yet some of the more mundane chores in this world like unclogging toilets or mowing lawns or lubricating machinery- - are still things that need to be done. Religion is something that is still literally in the dark ages, and yet we expect it to compete in the world of today.

Today is December 31, 2006 and I was thinking of turning the Jesus Christ show on but I absentl-mindedly turned on the TV and Joel Olstein was on. I think we can learn a few lessons from his programs. Glen showed up with coffee while he was on. He remarked how young he looked. I guessed he was forty and Glen thought he was only thirty. He was saying how when you’re driving you have a great big windshield out in front of you protecting you from the oncoming wind, but there is only a little tiny rear view mirror. You’re supposed to spend most of your time looking out at what’s ahead of you. Joel says don’t look back at your sin. He mentioned how David while his son with Bathsheba was still alive drew a lot of prayers and moaning for deliverance but after the baby was taken by the Lord David put the whole affair behind him and moved on. This is perhaps what I should do with Christians in my past. He spoke of Caleb and how he asked God for a mountain when he was eighty and how it was the same dream he had when he was forty. If God makes a promise “The bill is still collectable”, so to speak. He spoke of how David’s older brothers tried to talk him out of fighting Goliath because he wasn’t qualified. Joel says not to let negative people around you interfere with your dreams, and also said “Even if you have good seed you need good ground to plant it in”. I’ll hold that thought. We had waffles for breakfast. It was those little round things and fortunately Richard gave me another because he didn’t want it.

This paragraph is being typed the next day, January 2nd. just after Ford's moving funeral at the national cathedral. That organ postlude thing had a lot of trippy chord progressions at the end. Of course I guess the congragaqtion are supposed to wait for the body to be escorted out first. I went out for a smoke. Of course there are benefits to actually being IN a wedding party. In the wedding I was in in October 1981 me and the Pastor's Wife were the third and fourth people out of the - - er - uh - - multi purpose room. Some people of course don't want a religious wedding at all prefering not to make a sacramental comitment before God for all eternity. I'm wondering if there is such a thing as a "secular funeral", where you want to celebrate the person's life but you're not really sure they're making it to heaven and don't want to speculate about that. This paragraph howsever is going to be one of those "Inquiring minds want to know" personal paragraphs so if you want to skip over it you can. On December 31st. 1992 on a Thursday afternoon I was coming back from the liquor store with either Colt 45 or the Blue Bull 24 oz. cans. I looked down the street seeing dark smoke and some teenagers saw my expression and said "Your house is on fire". It turned out the apartment complex I was in was on fire. A large swath of the west wall for two stories was blackened. Someone had set a car on fire and smoke was billowing into the air and wafting eastward. Ken had called Joe and Kathy even though they had just recently moved out. The cops were called and they suspected arson. If it was a car fire it must have been a big one. My parents were coming over later to take me to Denny's for my birthday. This tradition had started in 1990 when I turned forty and this was now the third year of doing it in 1992. I had written them a letter in which among other things I disputed my age, ie. my date of birth. I had developed a theory that I was actually born February 25th. and not Newyears Eve. (If I'd been born in England I'd be the next year already) There were some "anomalies" I wanted to talk over with parents. First of all at Christmas dinner my aunt's mother had been told I was due to be born soon and she looked at my mother and said "What are you giving birth to, a mouse?" Apparently she didn't look that pregnent to be due in a week. Then we have "the nine weeks". Nine weeks after I was born the doctor said I had to go to the hospital and quit nursing because something suspected was wrong with my brain. They later did a report saying I had "hypoplasia", which means under-developed brain. They said I'd have a bird head. This proved obviously to be untrue if anyone has seen me try on hats. I'm a real George Lopez contender. Photos of me as a very young baby aren't that comon and there's one labeled "five months" where I look awfully emaciated. When I was four years old there are two notations in my baby book around February 25th. One says "[he] had a good time earing birthday cake" and another one said "He talked about his birthday cake". Why would parents want me to be two months older than I was? I can think of one reason. There was a letter I had sent to parents in December 1992 covering four topics I had intended to write to four different people. I had been in ROP on and off from September 1990 to late February 1992 and gotten three completion cirtificates in Word Perfect, Lotus, and De Base IV. I could have gotten one in BASIC if they'd offered it since I was doing three dimensional arrays and later on graphics. Sometimes the "hopefull flook" can occur where you throw a can of paint against the wall and get a beautiful dezign. Another letter topic was the man from El Paso. Joe and Kathy's name came up. In court they consider the "excited utterance" admissable even though it would normally be considered heresay. Dad had said "You attack Joe and Kathy even though they care a lot for you and are concerned about you". (How would he know that) Admittedly my blog stuff kind of enphasizes the negative. Dad also misquoted a letter passage saying in respect to the Asshole from El Paso "There are places in Hell that are especially hot that are reserved for him" or some such thing. I never wrote that. I've said enough.

Tomorrow of course is Ford’s funeral. It will be the third out of four. Actually, Ford will be getting a longer mourning period than President Kennedy got. Of course we will be treated to more spiritual sentimentality and that’s all well and good. It’s nice to reflect on the workings of God even if you don’t believe in him now. It makes us reflect on our past. But things said at moments such as Funerals don’t necessarily reflect about the way they feel about the present, especially if you’re a President. Ford was a “steady hand” on the economy simply because things had “settled down” a bit from when he took office by the time he left. But to celebrate him for the Nixon pardon is kind of like a guy going through a money crisis and praises his personal Priest because he “gave him the personal strength to eat dog food, which he didn’t think he had.” He’s like a priest that gave a father the cajones to look his kids with holes in their shoes straight in the eye and tell them he can’t afford new ones. He’s like a priest who when your wife of fifteen years committed adultery and then sued you for divorce you decided not to contest the divorce because it might be “traumatic to the court system” but tell your four kids you and mommy wouldn’t be living together. People say that sacrifice and “sucking it up” as Caroline Brady says, is the height of religious piety. So if you’re an old lady rather than hand down those priceless family heirlooms to your kids, you give them to Gene Scott’s church. What an act of generosity! You ask “What does this have to do with national politics?” To quote Dylan again, “Money doesn’t talk; it snares”. The Church got rich because Priests had no children to leave their acquired wealth to so leave it to the church. You know that “bartering system” where you trade real wealth for the hope of a better hereafter” Of course you know a huckster on the street can’t be as hard up as he constantly claims to be; he just wants to make a quick sale- just as Gene Scott wasn’t “some poor desperate guy who needed our compassion and prayers”. He was a rich and getting richer guy laughing his ass off all the way to the bank. You know- - it is said that gay marriage won’t even be an issue with the generation following mine. If that’s true it means marriage will cease to be a “religious” act where God or scripture or covenants are involved in any way. Really President Ford’s passing is saying good-bye to an American era. The times they are a changing. There is a real chance that the republicans may go for Rudy-baby even if he is pro gay, anti guns, pro abortion and pro immigration. After all he’s not running for President as we know him but for Dictator. It’s this sort of fascist regime that Juliani wants to install that these right-wingers are looking forward to. You know, with the possible exception of Jimmy Carter this country had never, and I repeat never elected a liberal Democrat on foreign policy. The last time we got close in 1968 the decision was made for us with an assassin’s bullet. The same thing might well occur again with Berock Obama. I’m just saying that the odds of a Hillary – Juliani contest are much higher than I might like to see. The republicans will go “left” if you call Musselini “left” and the democrats will swing right with fork-tongued Hillary Clinton. Let’s face it. Edwards is just too sincere to be President. If sincerity was a sinner he would have won four years ago. Like it or not we may still be a conservative nation despite the best Air America can do. Zel Miller shamed us all for even having hints of doubt about Bush’s war in Iraq and we all fell in line not wanting to be labeled as whooses. The polls really don’t bode as all well for the democrats. History teaches that democrats tend to lose ground as election time approaches and people lose their nerve retreating from those left wing protestations they may have registered in the primary. They say the race will be settled by February. If it’s Hillary and Rudy, the race could well be settled by February. Politicians have a history of quitting far before the delegate count would say they needed to. In Dylan’s words, “They just want to be on the side that’s winning”. People see politics as less an exercise in conscience and more “backing the right horse”, and of “making the right call” at Santa Anita racetrack.

Again they are saying in Iran that the Imam Mahadi will be returning, this time by the vernal equinox of this year. There is a possibility that we could see some gigantic upheaval or major regional war between the Shiites and the Sunnis, or between the “North” and the “South”. If “God” throws in with the “North” in this war than a lot of George Bush’s Arab friends could be crying in their beer. Obviously under such circumstances our President would need prayer because he might be in an agitated mental state. “Pushing the button” might just be an option the President would consider. It is said Iran wants to develop a Nuclear Bomb despite Iran’s repeated insistence they just want nuclear electric power. I don’t want to panic anyone, including myself, but there is a scenario people quote from Ezekiel in the Bible where people from the North- - and Iran and Syria are among these, come down and invade the south, and Egypt and Saudi Arabia and Yemen are among these. The general consensus is that the conflict is “settled” when those of the South set off a nuclear bomb. We have often heard that Bush doesn’t listen to his earthly father, or Collin Powel or Jerald Ford, but rather listens to his “father in heaven” like Jesus did. Jesus was perfectly willing to risk his own life to prove a point. There are things about George Bush I’d best not even say or think about too much. I could be getting ahead of myself. Things could always mellow out.

Some Personal "Bosc" History

Dear blog reader. We appreciate any input you offer about our subjects. The following material provides background information about me in a particular period of months in my life. It's kind of like "Acts of the Apostles" in that it is incomplete and reflects a personal point of view. It's probably more than you get from a lot of writers. In this blog we plan to explore a lot of the moral issues raised in the Bible. If you find yourself getting bored reading this first posting, feel free to move down to the next posting.

In mid March of 1980 Pete Richards invited me along with him on a dinner date with Kate. Kate was a sweet girl whom back in September around Beverly’s pool Pete had gotten in the healing business. She claimed one of her legs was longer than the other. Pete Richardsl also attempted to heal Laura, who had diagnosed scoliosis of the spine. I’m not sure how much success Pete had. Pete probably invited me along to keep distance between himself and Kate. Pete, Kate, and I had dinner in some place on Katella which was noted for its down home food or something, and they advertised free chocolate cake for desert. Soon after this Kate departed the scene. (I refer you to “Jousting”)

In late March of 1980 [Forrest Gump] had purchased a yellow truck. I think he had only recently gotten his driver’s license. He called his truck “Amos”. In fact he had names for a lot of his personal items like his tape recorder ect. Laura was in an amorous mood this twilight evening. She kept singing excerpts from the “Good and Plenty” jingle. At this time we were living in the yellow house with Daryl as our roommate. Daryl had a black lavidor named Taho, and Taho and Toby got along well. Daryl liked to work on cars a lot and Pete Richards once told me he found it irritating that Daryl wasn’t doing more house chores. Pete Richards was easily “irritated” in those days.

At the beginning of April I began my third and final twelve week quarter at Criss College. The details of how I even got a third quarter are in “Jousting”. This was the quarter they fired a few teachers. Notably Mr. Collins. I used to have him after sixth period when we were waiting for two O clock to roll around to get in our full six hours. He was an easy going fellow students liked. He gave me a passing grade in Payroll when I hadn’t done a lot of the work. Tom Day was probably my best friend there. He came in when I did and graduated when I did. There was that fat guy, whom I often saw in later years on a bus or ran into him somewhere, and I had to say I wasn’t doing much. There was Cynthia, whom I first met going there to register for the college. She was friendly. There was Linda Gunn, who really seemed to come out of her shell. And there was a blonde named Susie and there were lots of others. One thing I never told anyone at CRISS was that I was a Christian. I had seen it backfire too many times before and since and keeping my lips sealed on the issue was a wise move indeed.

In mid April things were going fine. I guess it was Friday April 18^th. that I accepted one of numerous offers of parents for dinner and a movie at the La Habra mall where Pete Richards worked. This time we had time and I went shopping. I bought three albums, “Victims of the Fury” by Robin Trower, “Rarities” –which was the new American version of the Rarities album of Beatles songs. There was already a British version out. And also I bought “Women and Children First” by Van Halen. I don’t remember what movie we saw. Afterwards as was customary I would meet up with Pete Richards, who was working as a Security Guard at the mall, and we would walk through the mall together and talk. I kind of miss this particular era.

The next night was the Bible Study. Laura was dressed in black, and looking sexy and she had a very flirtatious personality this night. One would have thought it was only a matter of time before we were having sex, [this part censored[..

In late April the weather had turned cool and overcast again. It would be about the last time. In early May the weather turned warm and sunny and pretty much stayed that way. In late April Alfred Hitchcock died. I think there was a book out. I was at CRISS college talking to someone about my dentist situation. I was having three upper wisdom teeth pulled. I had a “super-numary” or extra one. I think I was scheduled to have the lower ones out too, but I managed to delay that nine years. In “Jousting” I discuss Pete Richards’s saying my dental problems were affecting my personality. Dad also sounded this theme and in Oct. 1997 I was concerned enough to ask the dentist about infected brains and fevers and such. But it’s an even farther reach to say that a dental problem would have an adverse affect on my personality. (see “Jousting”)

Roll kettle drum. In early May, and I don’t remember the exact date, Pete Richards heard that what became known as the Bosc house was up for sale. I remember during this period of early May Pete Richards started getting uptight again. It’s almost as if some force was forcing Pete Richards to push things. The lady was a Christian. At the same time Mom was wondering where she could pick up some real estate and somehow Mom became more than a little interested in the house. I thought it was a bad idea from the word go. It would be like going backwards to move into a house your parents owned. In terms of rent it would go from 1/3 of $450.00 to half of $550.00. Not bright. I think it was mid May, perhaps Mothers Day, when we toured the Powers’ old house less than a block from where they lived. Obviously it would be absurd to live there. The funny thing is usually Real Estate deals have an escrow period. Maybe- - ten days?

The first Saturday in May several new people appeared at the Saturday night Bible study. There were Sylvia and Dilia. They were sisters. Sylvia was 20 and had been there the previous week. Dilia was a very mature fourteen. I liked the way she hugged. Also [cencered]. I didn’t particularly like him from day one. He seemed to have that motorcycle “tough guy” air about him. And there was Max, who was Colleen’s brother or something. I remember one time we and Jeff and Max were at a restaurant and Max mentioned some earthquake in Bishop or something. I think this was right after Mt. St. Helen’s had erupted. At this time Pete Richards was taking laborious notes on what happened at each Bible Study and who said what. Sometimes he read this journal to me.

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You Mark Campbell fans: There’s no room for him in this file. We need to pick up the pace drastically or we’ll never get all this in.

In early May I purchased “Dreams” by Grace Slick. A little later I purchased “Flush the Fashion”, the last album in the old house. Those flashing green lines are back. Every time I press a letter the whole lower paragraph flashes green lines. In “Jousting” we discuss my interaction with Rev. Westfall during this period. I remember having some dream Dad and I got in an argument when he was putting up an antenna. Reverand Westfall said the letter I wrote him seemed like a suicide letter. The letter was no doubt frought with a lot of the anxiety I was feeling at the time.

In late May at the last Bible Study at the old house, Laura was there hanging around the kitchen, and Brian Rains happened to make the comment “You need to watch out for those films reeling in your mind. Especially that one pornographic one”. I think he was referring to my lust for Laura. (Brian was a projectionist)

We moved into the Bosc house Saturday May 31^st. on a rare overcast day. We had a Bible study that night. A few days later Pete Richards, me, and parents took that family photo on the patio in front of that ash tree we ended up having to get rid of on May 13^th. 1982. My hair is observably long and full and my face has an air of confidence. At this time Pete Richards really began to ride me about doing chores and such. The thing is, he had graduated CSUF. I was the one under pressure. The house was a regular weed menace, and Dad thought it insane that they should consider buying such a place, with so many trees and all. There were these cute sprigs of blue flower plant. Little did I know they would soon end up taking over the whole yard, front and back. I think they were water hyacinths. They all died mysteriously in the winter of ’87 – ’88. Just to set the record straight, upon doing further research the flowers were not hyacinths. I don’t know what they were.

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Around mid June I bought “Blonde on Blonde” and “Heaven and Hell” at the La Habra mall. I took the bus home via Euclid and Lincoln, patiently waiting. Cindy Collins was back and I mentioned the Dylan album to her, and we also talked about the new Star Trek movie.

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I was feeling the pressure from Criss College doing the Practice Set and all in Accounting. I wanted to take the typing test to get it out of the way but they said “No, wait till you gain speed”. I was already typing 70 wpm. They were scheduling job interviews on campus. I felt pressure having to do an interview before I had even grad-uated. One thing at a time. There was a counselor there named Debby Vagner and she was friendly and everything but occasionally used obscene words and phrases. I saw her even after I graduated, but [the rest of this is sensored].

I was feeling beside myself and decided to write [censored] a letter. I said I felt as estranged from the Faith as Janis Joplin. I said I felt isolated. This letter met with a cooler response than any other. [cencored] clearly didn’t want to talk about it. Clearly, Christians let you down the time you need them most.

Parents came to the graduation at Criss. However the joy of the day was dampened because Mr. Bird, a new teacher and a real stickler, handed me back my practice set with lots of red marks on it. He failed to note the key word in the assignment was “Practice”. Linda Gunn made some comment to me and Pete Richards goes, “How come all the girls around here are so friendly tword you?”, and he had a note of hostility in his voice. We ate lunch out. I continued to go back to Criss the next week or so because they said I was missing some typing assignments but were vague about just what.

The Monday after graduation the weather continued hot, as it had been. I had a job interview in the late afternoon and took the bus down there in south Anaheim, and was hot and sweaty for the interview. I didn’t get the job.

The Bible Study was getting more spiritual and it seems often we had these long prayer vigils with the lights dimmed. I had a bunch of really strange dreams during the period. One time I drank a quarter bottle of rum just to get the image of one dream out of my mind. In early July I had a job interview in Orange, and someone drove me. The job was for someone with a “handicap”. I failed that interview too. In “Camera” I discuss both of these topics, and also how Pete Richards was spreading the roomer that it looked like I’d never get a job. I assumed I would because CETA had an investment in me, and they wouldn’t let me down. [one sentence deleted here]

In “Camera” we discuss how CMK members went Christian. This apparently occurred in early July. The Republican Convention occurred sometime in July.

Just how I came to write my book, “God’s Winepress” is an interesting topic, and I discuss it in two different ways in “Sougern” and “Camera”. In mid July or so I bought Queen’s “The Game”. A day or two later I took up smoking. One day I came across an unsmoked cigarette in the back yard. I liked it so much I decided I had been missing out. Smoking helped me think clearly. One time there was a prison break movie on TV and we were jotting down notes, “This would make a good example of how the antichrist works”. Ratting out friends, and other stuff. Actually I intended to put stuff about the Viet Nam War in my book and how “The country side is better than the cities” and stuff in the Stargate file. As it was there were notable things out of the Christian main stream in my book. I allude to the trinity as a monstrosity like a three headed snake. I say “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God” but I leave out “And the word was God”. We thought that might confuse our readers. There’s no talk about “living on the animal plane” or humans as a tripartite entity or how the Spirit comes in and reorganizes your life. I don’t say “Jesus Loves You” every other sentence. In other words, I don’t “stroke” my readers. Had I to do the book over again I would take more time with it and read it over and make sure it didn’t sound stilted. Gary, our next room mate made a remark to me that he had been working on a novel for eight months, and more or less indicated I was proceeding at a breakneck pace.

There was a trip to the beach with Laura on July 22^nd. According to the “Camera” file (in the Yearling directory) Laura wore a light blue bathing suit and about the only thing I did was put suntan lotion on her. It was an overcast day but I think we were at the beach for over three hours. You’d think me and her would have a lot of time to talk. But Pete Richards was the one with the phallic symbol, ie. car. [two sentences were deleted here]

We first met Jim Cooper on Saturday July 26^th. 1980, Mick Jagger’s birthday. Jim Cooper had a winning personality and we were eager to sign him on the dotted line. Jim seemed enthusiastic about my book plans. There was a problem with the power outlets on Jim’s side of the house which we tended to in early August. The swimming pool next door to the south was not empty. Jim and I went swimming there a few times. Jim liked to jump off the roof into the pool. I was too chicken to try that. The roof was kind of steep and frankly if you slipped, you would land on the cement.

In early August Pete Richards went on his annual backpack retreat. What was significant this year is that we were in Judy’s trailor and Judy makes the remark, “Yeah, but we have to keep up fellowship with something”. I thought, “You poor thing, you don’t know how Pete Richards’s mind works. If he wants to terminate the group for a few weeks or half the summer there isn’t anybody who can change Pete Richards’s mind”.

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In mid August Pete Richards was back from his trip. Me and him and Laura and maybe others went on an outing to the stores of Knott’s Berry Farm. It was Laura’s birthday and she was 21 as of August 16^th. She was in an amorous mood- downright physical. Per-haps it was due to some retreat she was just on. (in Sacramento?)

The next day, Sunday, we had people over. It was a celebration dinner for me finishing my book at breakneck speed in just three weeks. You see how absurd that is. Judy was in a bubbly mood. This was to change. Some time the following week, I con-tacted KNI printers about getting a print job done. I didn’t trust Publishers after bad luck with my first book. That was a mistake. When Pete Richards found out I had actually scheduled a print job for a book he went into a panic. He said “You can’t do that!” and other things to indicate he was strongly opposed. Pete Richards said “I’d like to know where you’re going to store them all”. In Pete Richards’s mind it was an impossibility that I would sell them.

On Sunday August 31^st. in addition to Saturday, we had people over. Laura came dressed in a sexy outfit and was flirtatious. We were listening to Chuck Smith speak on Job and he spoke of Satan providing “an attractive alternative”. I had told Judy I felt pretty good about the past month or so- what I had accomplished. In a somewhat bitter tone of voice she responded, “Well, anything you accomplished was only with God’s help. You didn’t do it yourself”. This was the first time Judy “went negative” but it wouldn’t be the last. The words were almost a curse.

Labor Day, September 1^st. me and Jim and Laura went to Laguna Beach. We climbed all over the rock formations looking at shells and such. We had fish and chips at some seaside place, and I had beer. Laura and I interacted OK but the only danger signal is when we went in some store afterwards and Laura was looking at lipstick or something and she and Jim got into an extended conversation. Some time around this period Jim said that he had kissed Laura and Laura got upset. I’m not sure what the deal was.

The next Saturday, September 6^th. a new face, Jeane Hayse made her appear-ance. Jim Cooper had talked to her on the phone and was favorably impressed. I talked to her OK. Only thing she was one of the new phase of mental patients Pete Richards was starting to have over. Kind of like his own personal groupies.

I had a pastoral conference with Rev. Westfall some time the following week. I’m not sure whether I discussed my anxieties about Laura or what.

The next day, Sunday September 7^th. was the Disneyland trip. In the late afternoon we had a Mexican dinner here. I think it was the first day of NFL season. The Disneyland trip went OK. I was a little bothered because Laura was distant and preferred to hang around with other people. At the end of the evening she gave Pete Richards some Christian albums to listen to, including Resurrection Band which in those days was Heavy Metal. The album was interesting.

The following Saturday, September 13^th. was the swimming party at Judy’s trailer park. It was overcast all day, which was to prove prophetic. This is the day that was a disaster with Laura. She was wearing that same light blue bathing suit and looked alluring and all of that. But she gave me the silent treatment and all of that. There was just the time she beat me at billiards. At this time I had started writing the media again and I sent them two albums in the month of September.

About this time I got the “galleys” back from KNI printers. There were all sorts of typographical errors and a lot of them they had introduced into the text. But I added sentences and did my best to get spelling errors. I think Dad at one said at one time he found 295 errors in the text. Some of those errors were miniscule.

The following Saturday Pete Richards had a group of back packers over or whatever and when it was time to go this cute girl named Karen was hugging people good-bye and I was so desperate I was glad to have that. My psychological mood was depressed.

John Bonnum committed suicide sometime in late September. He took a combination of sleeping pills and booze and I guess he was barfing a lot. Obviously Led Zeppelin would never play again. The thing is I remember his death occurring late September of 1979, not 1980, just after “In Through the Out Door” had come out and had six different camera angles or something with “clues” in the picture.

Well, we’ve come to the end of this file. I’ve reported everything I intended to. If you want more info. just read either “Sougern”, “Camera”, or “Jousting”.

Just as a closing note here- - - if the Rapture of the Saints is to come, I predict it will come in late September at about 6:45 in the evening, or just barely after sunset. In my vision I sense the Dodgers and Giants playing, probably in San Francisco due to the color of the uniforms. The media probably isn’t surprised that I choose to end the file here because of what I put in my letters. We’ve tried to keep this file squeaky clean, morally. We don’t want to offend any KFI commentators named Jesus.

The Moral Argument

One of the most perswasive arguments used to prove God exists is the moral argument. Immanuel Kant, so I'm told, used the moral argument as his favorite. This belief says that man is morally accountable to a higher power. If man transgress against God's Pure Law in this life, he will be held accountable for his actions in the next. In Galations is says that whatever a man sows he shall also reep. This is true whether he sows for bad or sows for good. It is pointed out by Jesus Christ on KFI that our sins have a compounding effect. Our sin or thoughtless behavior may induce another person to sin in an instance where he might not have otherwise. It is written that in this world we shall have temption, but woe unto the man by whom the temptation comes. It is also true that good actions can have compounding effects. "It's a Wonderful Life" is a dramatic demonstration of this principle. If we are to believe soap operas when we confess our sins to a priest of whoever, the pardon will not take hold unless we "make it right" against any and all individuals whom we have wronged. This is a difficult thing for many to do. There is a line in a Blue Oyster Cult song that says "It all turns around in the end". Chuck Smith has promoted the theory that life is like a tapistry on which we are working on the reverse side, the side not normally seen, and that only God ssees the side visable to the public. Along this line of thinking after we die, we "shall know God even as we are known by him", and we too will at least see "the other side" of the tapistry and the beautiful pattern that God has worked out in our lives. Of course belief in these moral principles is an artical of Faith, and it is said we are to come to God by faith. One might say, "By faith we live our live our lives by high moral principles". They say that Scientology only allows for one proper "engram" and that is "Survive". I wonder what scientologists would think of adding another principle, Whatever measure you deal out to others will be dealt back to you". That's in the sermon on the Mount. Again it says "Judge not, lest you be judged" but Greek experts, of which I am not one, say that the word in Greek is one for "Condemn". We are not forbidden from making a moral evaluation of another. I at times wonder whether it's actually true that how we judge others will be how we are judged. Might such a verse be used to justify homosexuality or other perverted life style. I don't know. I guess I'll have to pray about it. Basically scripture is saying that before we condemn the actions of others we better be pretty darned sure of ourselves.

In keeping with what I just said I am here to make an apology over the blogisphere. I would like to publicly apologise to Brittany Speers, for making the implication, however vague, that her eight month son, Sean Preston, might somehow be the antichrist. This allusion that I made was totally unfounded and I know that saying it was harmful and sending out the wrong vibes into the universe. The baby looks as normal, spiritually, as any other baby, and once again I want to apologise for having made the statement I did.

The President of the United States has an awsome duty, with his finger on the nuclear button, to keep the Peace in the world. The United States right now is the only super power. We have been given a sacred trust by God to be stewards of the world. The President must excersise great wisdom in all of his actions and we owe it to our President to keep him in intercessory prayer daily. We need to pray that the situation in Iraq will not deteriorate, but that the United States be vindicated in its three years of struggle in the region and that all of our efforts to form a stable government in Iraq not be in vain. Certainly there is time to make everything right. We can even how emerge victorious and vindicated in our actions- - and terrorism can be put on the run and "Peace" will break out in the region of the mideast. Certainly it's a hopeful thought that after Iraq becomes a stable nation, that other nations may look to it as a model for them to pattern their own governments after. This would be a good thing.

Some say enlightenment can only be achieved through prayer and fasting. Others insist that trancendental meditation is the way to go. Others believe tight adherence to a particular religious creed is the only way to achieve a sense of enlightenment and justification. If we all seek to become part of that positive moral tapistry, a picture will begin to emerge. Others will see the emerging image and want to become part of it. I don't know what God ultimately has planned for this world. I personally wish scripture wasn't so vague. Belief in a God of morality is a matter of Faith. It is written "Whatever is not of faith is sin" so the logical thing one can do to keep from sinning is to maintain a life of Faith in the True God. (Selah)

OLD NEWS STORIES WE ARE JUST GETTINT AROUND TO

They were talking about why women are attracted to “Bad Boys”. First up on the list was Fonzi. Fonzi is kind of a Hollywood fabrication. He’s an anomally. He’s all show and no substance as far as being a “bad boy” or anything else. If a woman encounters a real “Bad Boy” there is probably some lacking thing in her personality that is attracted to “Bad Boys”. There is the line “If it seems to good to be true; it probably is too good to be true” I’m kind of thinking of that older man Iola Boyland was interested in on “Mama’s Family”. He turned out to be a first rate jerk. Some traits of Bad Boys remind me of Christians. If they call you eight times a day during your work day are they really doing this because they Care about you, or are they saying “I own you”. There is another trait that the Jesus Christ show has and also other Christians have- - and that is not being at all interested in your opinions, but at the same time he wants you to hang on every word he says. Also there’s the idea with women that “I want to be the first to really understand this person”. I never seem to meet women like that. It is said that Bad Boys have rough edges but the real bad boys have polished edges. One criticisum of Dr. Laura I have is that if you listen to her advice you’ll weed out all the men except the ones that are especially good at lying to you and tell you exactly what you want to hear.

There is the case of that sexual predator with a long record that strangled that woman with her own bikini top named Sours or something. They say there is an eighty percent repeat rate in sexual predators. One woman says you can put a GPS tracking device on the guy and it will only cost ten dollars a day. I don’t know anyone who will work for ten dollars a day dedicating his whole day to watching the movements of one suspect. The more men you track the more people it takes to track them. It’s the same principle as drug testing. The more people you test for drugs the greater chance there is of a potential screw-up. That bikini top guy had a long record. But it seems the goal is to not let him “slip through the system” in the first place. Obviously if every predator got twenty years for a first time offence, soon there would be much fewer predators. My guess is after 20 or 25 years in prison a person would have to have mellowed out. Maybe the worst offenders could be put in one of those “Pellican Bay” type of prisons. Some may say this sort of prison is expensive to build. I guess the question is just how highly to we value a moral society where the guilty are truely punished.

Yesterday they had a funeral for one of those girls in that great blondes mix-up where one girl was presumed dead and the other, who looked a lot like her, was in a coma, and nobody, strangely enough, could tell the difference. Both families should be kept in prayer.

Finally I would like to address the question of astrology and the Bible. According to the KFI host, anyone who believes in astrology will burn in hell. I have never seen that verse in the Bible myself. It says in Genesis, "Let them (celestial bodies) be for signs and for seasons". The definition of "sign" is never given but in Job, two constelations by their classic Greek names are given, Orion and the Pliades. This would seem to me that God is name endoucing here. The Catholic Church at one time endourced astrology.

Moses, who talked to God Face to Face

I'm not sure what's going to happen with this posting. The last post I did on this blog seemed to encounter technical difficulties and never got posted correctly. Also the introductory paragraph about mysel I added was not listed. At any rate I'm going to be blogging less in the future because I'm not entirely sure that my efforts are bearing any worthwhile fruit.

Moses was said to be more humble than any man. He was first of all the reluctant prophet. Many prophets of God tend to be a little reluctant, but God has to use gentle perswasion. As you know Moses in his early years killed an Egyptian task master and burried his body in the sand, and then fled Egypt. When he first met Jehovah God he did not know his name. Formerly the Hebrews had known God under the name of "El", which the Caanenites used. But God's new name, Jehovah, means "The becomming one". Whatever you need, God will supply it. Moses was humble because God was always trying to get him to assert his rights to authority over the people. It is always said, "With freedom comes responsability". That's why the Ten Commandments were given. The first time Moses ascended Mt. Sinai it was Pentacost. Moses stayed up there for forty days and he came down on the Seventeenth of Tammuz, which also happens to be a Babylonian holiday. The people had made a golden calf and said that it led them out of Egypt. Leter Jereboam fashioned two golden calfs where the people could do sacrifice, one in Dan and the other in Beth El. People are always saying that if you don't know the law you aren't guilty of breaking it, but I've never heard of any police department that worked on this principle. The law exists, with or without your knowledge, and with or without your obediance. It is said that Jesus died for our sins. Oddly, it doesn't say that Jesus died for our transgressions. Moses smashed the golden tablets in a rage because the Law stood already "broken". Later, on the first of the month of Elul, Moses ascended the mountain again. Once more he stayed up there forty days and came down on the holiday Yom Kippur. This time the tablets were unbroken and placed in the Ark of the Covenent, along with a jar of manna from heaven, on which the people lived during their forty year trek through the wilderness, and also the rod of Aaron, which budded. It is said that this seccond set of tablets represent Christ. Obviously when Jehovah had the chance to do a rewrite he didn't change any of the laws. They are the Ten Commandments and not the ten suggestions. The Arc of the Covenent is believed to have had some electrical charge around it so that if anybody touched it, they would die. There were four colored curtains surrounding the Arc of the Covenent that many commentators say stand for the four Gospells. Jehovah said that if you kept all the statutes of the law, you would live a blessed life. Presumably this means that since Jesus Christ kept the law perfectly, we by partaking of his flesh and drinking his blood and being baptized in his name, assume His perfection. Jehovah said "The curse without a cause does not come". He also said of his people that "No weapon formed against you will prosper". I like that.

Leo Le Port says that congress was debating an "equal bits on the internet" law. The phone company to charge other I S P's for use of their phone lines and raise costs. There are all of these roomers of a two tiered internet system where if you have D S L it costs more. They tried to get Congress pass a law enfourcing internet equality, but it didn't pass.

I would like to talk briefly about Anne Coulter. Many like World Net Daily are defending her even though a lot of her remarks are crude and tasteless. Many would say "It takes one to know one" and all that. As Christians we are called to a higher standard. Even if certain people on the left have stepped over the line as to what is an accurate or appropiate remark, and called various government officials names, we on the right should not imotate their behavior. One time parents came to Dr. Phill complaining about the "pissing bandit". Their two year old ran around stark naked and would piss over all of the furnature and such, and people around thought it all was very amusing. There are many ways you could deal with this aberent behavior but one of the alternatives would not be to, for instance, pee on the little kid yourself making comments like "There- - how do you feel about that?" The kid would get precisely the wrong idea from such behavior thinking it was a contest. In like manner, Christians are held to a higher, adult standard, and it's our job to contrast our ways from the ways of the infantile and the childish. Our job is to proclaim the gospell. It's also the Christians job to show love for all mankind. Nobody can say that Anne Coulter shows love for all mankind. At the very best, her "Christian witness" is flawed, if it exists at all. Of course we are supposed to respect the dead and the feelings of widdows. There is a price to defending your country. We shouldn't con ourselves into thinking that the ultamate sacrifice isn't being paid. As Christians we are not to be as the Moslems, but are always to be praying that true peace be established. (Selah)

What Does God Require of Us?

As an answer to this question number one on this list is perpetual virginity untill, and if, we get married. The norm is to get married to one spouce for life. When this standard was established life expectancy was 45 years or less. There was no "mid life crisis" because you didn't have to worry about that sort of thing; you were dead. So you wouldn't have all these divorces once the children are gone. It is said if you're a virgin till marriage you will live a blessed life. Two negitive examples scream out in my mind as to why this is not so. Pricilla was a virgin when she married Elvis. It seemed important to Elvis that she stay a virgin untill she married Elvis and she was going to stay a virgin even if Elvis had to find solice elsewhere such as with Anne Margeret. Of course under this theory the husband is supposed to be so "impressed" with your purety that he will stay loyal for life. In Pricilla's case this wasn't so. Her marriage to Elvis was doomed almost from the start. The other example is Princess Dianna. Once again her marriage was doomed almost from the start because Charles was in love with Camille Parker Bowles. What makes this case even worse is that Charles met Camille in 1971 but he was forbidden from marrying her because she was Not a virgin. Even on soap operas where people make this great attempt to be perfect and end up causing disaster. The case of Grace Bennet on Passions stands out in my mind. Some may object "Well, in those two cases you mentioned the partner was not a virgin". I was typing a paragraph yesterday and one of the warning signs of stalker men against women is if he says to you "You're the first relation I've really had". Such men develope an obcessive posessiveness tword their women, which is extremely unhealthy.

Still the idea of seeking God's will is a good idea. It's always a good thing to pray for the faith of others who are weak, that God may strengthen them. I'm trying to quit smoking. This is a "lust of the flesh" also. Just over five years ago I quit alcohol. That's news. What is not apparently news is that in those five years I have not had a sexual relationship with a woman. Alcaholics Anonamus doesn't hand out commemoritive coins for that.

"If the Moslems do as much as you,
of what profit is your Faith?"

"Charity is not for those of Faith,
but for the heathen as a witness"

"If you gain total mastry over the flesh
but in the after-life are treated
equally to one who hasn't gained mastry,
of what profit is your Faith?"

"A wise men has said that life is
not the destination, life is the journey.
What is Eternal Life to you
if now you are living in boredom & discontent?"

"If Faith is the substance of things hoped for
and you do not have these
Cannot it be said you do not have Faith?
And if it's true you do not have Faith
and whatever is not of Faith is sin,
are you not living in Sin?"

This blog was written this morning and it has not posted all day and it' nearly 3:30 now. Maybe God doesn't want this blog posted; I don't know. Nobody reads these blogs anyhow. They say in the promos that "Profiles help people find you, if you want to be found". I'm not sure what that means. What I need to do is send out E mails with these blog website addresses on them. But I'm not going to put out just any personal information about myself to total strangers. This blog site has been having trouble with their software, so I'll try and post one more time. I'm not giving my birthday in my profile because I don't want anyone doing horoscopes. There may be hints as to other aspects to my identity. My spelling isn't always accurate.

I happened to think, many of the things below the Moslems also believe, and yet we don't call them pious; we call them evil. The Moslems, too believe in an After Life and relish martyrdom. Being a martyr of course just means being a "witness". I am not allowed to be a "Witness" of my faith and life because people may not like what they hear. It used to be that honisty and sincerety and dedication were prized qualities. I'm not sure if they are today.

1 :	And when he had called unto him his twelve disciples, he gave them power against unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all manner of disease.
2 :	Now the names of the twelve apostles are these; The first, Simon, who is called Peter, and Andrew his brother; James the son of Zebedee, and John his brother;
3 :	Philip, and Bartholomew; Thomas, and Matthew the publican; James the son of Alphaeus, and Lebbaeus, whose surname was Thaddaeus;
4 :	Simon the Canaanite, and Judas Iscariot, who also betrayed him.
5 :	These twelve Jesus sent forth, and commanded them, saying, Go not into the way of the Gentiles, and into any city of the Samaritans enter ye not:
6 :	But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.
7 :	And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand.
8 :	Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.
9 :	Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses,
10 :	Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, nor yet staves: for the workman is worthy of his meat.
11 :	And into whatsoever city or town ye shall enter, inquire who in it is worthy; and there abide till ye go thence.
12 :	And when ye come into an house, salute it.
13 :	And if the house be worthy, let your peace come upon it: but if it be not worthy, let your peace return to you.
14 :	And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet.
15 :	Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.
16 :	Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.
17 :	But beware of men: for they will deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their synagogues;
18 :	And ye shall be brought before governors and kings for my sake, for a testimony against them and the Gentiles.
19 :	But when they deliver you up, take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak.
20 :	For it is not ye that speak, but the Spirit of your Father which speaketh in you.
21 :	And the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death.
22 :	And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved.
23 :	But when they persecute you in this city, flee ye into another: for verily I say unto you, Ye shall not have gone over the cities of Israel, till the Son of man be come.
24 :	The disciple is not above his master, nor the servant above his lord.
25 :	It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?
26 :	Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.
27 :	What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.
28 :	And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.
29 :	Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.
30 :	But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
31 :	Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
32 :	Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven.
33 :	But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.
34 :	Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.
35 :	For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.
36 :	And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.
37 :	He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
38 :	And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.
39 :	He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.
40 :	He that receiveth you receiveth me, and he that receiveth me receiveth him that sent me.
41 :	He that receiveth a prophet in the name of a prophet shall receive a prophet's reward; and he that receiveth a righteous man in the name of a righteous man shall receive a righteous man's reward.
42 :	And whosoever shall give to drink unto one of these little ones a cup of cold water only in the name of a disciple, verily I say unto you, he shall in no wise lose his reward.